"ILOVENY"

In the company of my dear friend, Ilyssa, I will discover the wonders

of the beautiful city of New York. Our itinerary so far involves the following:

Today, my job will give me the "Ok," to go.

Today, her job will work with her schedule

August 9: Drive to Miami August 10: Board a plane

August 10-18: Be fabulous in NY

August 12: Watch Grizzly Bear Live

August 15: Get ass in NY

August 18: Decide whether to run-away to NY

or board the plane.

August 19: Drive back Orlando, FL (if we come back)

Hulk shorts?

Some day, Somewhere, Someone will join me.

365 Days

Have you ever wished you could remember the last 365 days of your life? Well I did, so I started videotaping... and videotaping... and getting video footage from my best friend every time she would BBM me... so then... I decided to make this mini movie.
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Artist of the mid month?

Amanda Palmer.

Heart-break.

The fact is, at some point when your heart stops throbbing you have to make a decision; "Today is the day I will care less about you." It's crazy how strong willed your brain is compared to your heart. Every day you wake up and you have to keep going and you have to smile and act okay and you can't just tell someone who asks, "What's up?" that you feel like your insides are coming out of your mouth, because that's not what they want to hear... they want to know you're okay. So, that's what we do... that's how we handle heart break... we lie until it's not a lie anymore.

Far.

We're not really okay, not even close.

Lost.

My focal point is gone. My vision is blurred and my ears are irritated by the familiar sounds. I need to escape. Anywhere but here.

The monster.

Without a warning, he came into our lives. Each and every moment giving another reason to trust him. He was patient, it should have been a sign. He creeped into the farthest parts of our hearts, making all else seem unreal. He knew his mission and he was out to get us. Before we knew it, he was close companion; No longer a stranger to our world, but a beautiful addition. Everything made more sense with him there. Suddenly everything changed. One by one he swallowed us whole.

Summer

She was constant.

I was not.
She was sober.
I was not.
She was stable.
I was not.
She was conventional.
I was not.

She made sense.

I did not.

Statement:

I don't really believe in sleep.

It's finally happened. I stopped waking up wanting to feel you next to me. Many moons ago, I would find your silhouette and bring you close to me. Sometimes, I'd feel that not even a nuclear bomb could hurt me when I was in your arms. Not this morning. It seems as if the two people we were would hate the two people we've become. Who are you? I don't recognize your smell and even less your look. I woke up happy it was no longer you. Today, I will walk away as if you and I never happened.

Tuning my Emotions

A while back, my friend Andres

showed me this website.

It's designed to make playlists

according to your moods.

In other words, it's magical.

Thank you Andres as always

you are a magnificent human being.

Somewhere

Somewhere along the lines,

friends just started feeling like family.

Do Better.

You could do better,

You could do better,

You could be

the greatest

man in the world.

All the beautiful things in life.

:

Our current personality is made up of millions tiny decisions we've made.

As simple as....

1, 2, 3.

Skinny Love

Better

and now... I have you. And I swear, I wouldn't trade you for all the cupcakes in the world. Not even a cookies and cream one. Nope, you're just better.

Kath...

Cath . . .
She stands with a well intentioned man
But she can't relax with his hands on the small of her back
As the flashbulbs burst she holds a smile
Like someone would hold a crying child

Soon everybody will ask what became of you
Your heart was dying fast and you didn't know what to do

Cath . . .
It seems that you live in someone else's dream
In a hand-me-down wedding dress
With the things that could have been are repressed
But you said your vows and you closed the door
On so many men who would have loved you more

Soon everybody will ask what became of you
Your heart was dying fast and you didn't know what to do
The whispers that it won't last roll up and down the pews
And if our hearts were dying that fast, they would have done the same as you
I'd have done the same as you

MGMT: Electric Feel

I said oh, girl

Shock me like an electric eel

Baby girl

Turn me on with your electric feel

Love Bug

You know what I find utterly and completely fascinating? The love bug. I had never heard of them prior to my move to Orlando, FL, but they have become a familiar companion throughout my days here. Of course, if you are as uninformed as I was, you seize to understand my bewilderment. You see, the love bug was created by humans. It had the sole purpose of decreasing the amount of mosquitoes surround us, Floridians, on a daily basis. Yet, instead of consuming the mosquitos as it was engineered to do, the love bug entered our world and made a choice. Instinct took over, and now they surround us everywhere, having no effect on mosquitoes whatsoever and serving one purpose; surviving. Yes, everything above is incredibly fascinating, but what gets me, is the fact that science created something out of nothing and then suddenly that nothing had an instinct. Instinct, that for the longest time was considered Godly made, instinct...was created by man. 

Artist of the Month

Grizzly Bear

Maybe

Would you always...
Maybe sometimes...
Make it easy

10 Streets Down & I Can See For Miles.

I disappeared into the distance,
hid behind contemplations of "what was this?"
and disguised myself as an unavoidable casualty.